Thursday, November 19, 2009
bad day. bad day. bad day.
10:02 PM;
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
sometimes looks can be deceiving. sometimes the surface may be the totaly opposite of the inside. sometimes you just cant seem to know what one's thinking. sometimes you jus wun be able to understand. sometimes.
got extremely emotional again just now. for freakking crappish reasons. its damn dumb to get emotional over these. but sometimes it just cant be helped. its like, it just got triggered and then poof! you're affected. but whatever. i noe its jus gna get worse if im going to brood over it. so guess i'll jus shut it out for now. better still, handle it only when it comes again (: but as i went into that emo-ish world again just now. please, may i know who's there? can anyone please enlighten me?
6:56 PM;
Sunday, November 15, 2009
somehow, i've already forgotten the feeling of freedom. i've adapted to the daily routine of working from day till night, perfecting whatever im supposed to do. to the extent that i actually forgot how i used to spend my weekends. =X
tmr shall be the day. the day we receive the perhaps dreaded promotional results. i guess more or less, we know our own results. where we stand, whether if we'll go up or remain. or perhaps, whether we want that promotion anot. till tmr, i'll still be worrying, i'll still be anxious, i'll still be afraid. coz of the many things that may/will happen tmr. those tears which may be shed, those happy tears for being promoted; and those sad tears for being unable to be promoted. nonetheless, it'll be good if we can all move up as a whole as 0912.
i want the ionic bonds to become covalent. i want the 5 years to become 6. i want the short term to become long term. i want us all to upgrade to form that SOLID block of friendships!
2:26 PM;
Friday, November 13, 2009
lols. this is coming late. rather late. or ok. very late. i din mean to la. but its jus i couldnt afford the time n effort. i've wrote a few drafts, but ended up deleting them all. simply coz i felt it wasnt good enough. but this post wouldnt be that 100% well done either. perhaps its the combination of the best parts of the drafts ba. (:
its been long since i wrote posts of this genre. or at least, its been long since i planned to touch on this genre. a genre i'd call my forte. so hopefully i do succeed in doing up a good one. (: (ok, maybe not.)
well, 10112009 was supposed to have marked the end of the whole PW process, whole PW cycle. but, i guess we should feel honoured ba, to be called back to be filmed. nnd i guess we rly did well (though i kinda stumbled after direct eye contact with the PBL) (: but in any case, G-O-O-D-J-O-B!
GOODJOB TEAM! (:
GOODJOB 0912!
through this PW cycle, i've rly learnt alot. nnd im really heartened and cheered by the team spirit and class spirit we've displayed. especially so during this OP period. seriously, we've bonded. we've worked. we've fought together, forged together, without segregations, without being bothered by the 'crack' in the class. 0912, WE ROCK! who would have thought this would happen? well, it was unexpected for me. but i seriously enjoy and cherished this moments of quality time spent together. perhaps it may have came a little late, but truth is. NOTHING IS EVER TOO LATE.
now that PW has ended, i'll miss those early mornings in school. those late nights in school. those weekends in school. i guess the part that has really touched me, is that we even were willing to stay in school, on a SATURDAY, until ard 10+ just to finish up that WR, nnd even missing dinner time with family (yes SAMYY, i mean you! xDxD). nnd those late nights rehearsing for OP. i'm really touched by the effort that you all were willing to put in. yes, it may not have been the whole team who stayed. but i really have to say thanks to all of you. many conflicts, many dissatisfactions during the process, but we've managed to pull it off, with the great results in the end. as driver of the team, i've really made you all work. so, once again, sorry for over-pushing u all. (if applicable) but im sure you all can see my rationale, esp after we've produced tip-top quality work time and again (ok, actually not many times, its just 2 times). lols! but well done team! well done! really. it may not have been smooth-sailing for us. but im grateful for a team like this! (:
i remember we started out as people from the different mini-cliques of the class. nnd i was like, would i be able to work well with this team? i guess the answer is apparent now. I CAN! but i'd say PW has really enlightened me on the good and bad sides of mankind. we may be nice, but all of us still have that nasty side in any case, which highlights the need, for good, effective communication. of course, discretion should be exercised. *winks* but im actually quite surprised and shocked, how well these bonds forged with you all have blossomed over this period. esp in the case of MC, i really didnt forsee this. lols. but it doesnt matter. what matters is that it blossomed well. (: same thing for MATT. well, i wouldnt say that we've really bonded alot through this process. but i guess the outcome was also surprising for me ba. at least u managed to better that not-so-good impression i had of u. xDxDi guess that's all for my team. love'ya! <3
of course, there's still one person who's key behind our sweet success.MS HAZEL!thanks for being there all this while, helping us achieve our EEE! hahs. more importantly, thanks for those sacrifices made. esp when u came back to sch aft ur tuition just to help us vet our WR for that one last final time. it wasnt expected of you. it wasnt part of your job, but u still gladly came back for us. for that, thank you. same goes for those super late nights u've spent looking through WRs, OP slides, GPPs, I&Rs, EOMs, and what not. seriously,BIG THANK YOU! o-(^.^)-onnd of course, those encouragements u gave, and those inspirations. perhaps those were not related to PW, but u were still there to cheer us on to keep our morale and spirits high. (: i've learnt many life lessons from you. nnd who knows? i might just become ur colleague some day? xDxD
&& my class. 0912! as i was saying, we've bonded. we've fought and forged together. nnd it clearly shows we can actually put aside our differences and push forward. TOGETHER AS ONE. nnd i guess its apparent, that with our efforts combined and with our hearts united, we're capable of being perhaps the best class.
during the process, i guess the closest group to us was the coral reefers (turquoise reefers, if they prefer). perhaps coz we both had the same goals in mind, since the start of the process. nnd that made us work so closely together. i remember those times, they helped with our WR formatting, nnd we helped them back. those times we helped with their props, and they helped us back. those time we accompanied each other out for dinner, or to stay back in school for additional rehearsals. i guess what was special for me, was the bond between our 2 groups. i mean, why would any random person want to stay in school late, just to look at the other group do their work? when we did our rehearsals late in school, the reefers were there to help. when they stayed for the presentation slides, we were there to support. nnd i guess its this special bond, that allowed for this to happen. but nonetheless, i'd stil want to thank the reef team, for being there for us all these while. (: THANKS!
i wouldnt say excatly the same for the other teams - the games group, music group, and korean group. for its a fact that we really arent as close. but anyways, you all were still there when we needed you. so were we! xDxD those time spent doing rehearsals after rehearsals, changing powerpoint slides time and again, correcting speeches over and over. i guess that's a whole lot of quality time spent together. nnd of course, for some of us. those meal times, those slackking times. to just put it simply, THANKS & I LOVE YOUS! ^^0912 is L-O-V-E-D! <3
let's hope this lasts! (:
10:53 PM;